pepper spray

Luisa, her sister &brother-in-law (visiting from cape verde) and the kids went to their grandma's houses for 2 days so its just me and luciano here. He is very protective. He had to leave for a few hours to go to the doctor and then the gym so he was like "ahhh i feel bad leaving i know you'll be safe but i just ummm do you want a gun or pepper spray at least?!" (he knows i like guns and we shoot birds outside sometimes) i just laughed tho and told him no worries i'll be fine but he didnt care, he still brought me some pepper spray and makes sure i take it with me where ever i go now. So today i walked down to the post office and he made sure i had it with me. He was being funny showing me how to hold it certain ways so that if someone were to try to take it, my grip would be better so they couldnt knock it out haha idk he was so serious and i just thought it was funny. It reminds me of KOOOOTEN cuz my brother has always joked about how i need pepper spray and how he would get me some but he never did. So im at the post office and there are two men in there. one in my line and another off to the side. The guy off to the side said something to me and i didnt know what it was so i just said sorry i dont speak italian. (i always have someone as me something at the post office and every time i just reply sorry i dont speak italian and they usually just say ohhhh english okay and leave me alone) He looked at me with like *eyebrows* and goes english? I just looked at him like ew you sick-o and didnt say anything. He asked me another question but i didnt understand so i started to have a not so good feeling about him. So i decided i'd let him get in front of me in line. I thought it was smart cuz if he was behind me and came out looking for me afterwards he would come up behind me and i would rather be in control so i figured if he was in front of me, he would exit first so when i would walk out of the post office he would be in front of me and i could see him. So he is at the window and keeps turning around looking me up and down like not even trying to hide it. Um no! First of all you're freaking old and like muslim or from pakistan or something he had like an orange turban type thing on and dark skin just no. He wasnt like a skinny muslim guy i think more pakistan or iraq or something, he was thicker and wore different clothes than the normal muslim people i see her. He also smelled really bad there were 2 flies literally that kept buzzing all around him and moved with him where ever he went haha! Also i realized that when guys look at me i have a potty mouth. ha oops :P nothing came out, i just think all sorts of bad names in my head and chew them out in my mind haha! Me and kaylee were always pretty straight up with guys that would stare or cat call or something like im not a dog so dont treat me like one ya know? So i have very little tollerance for idiotic men. So i looked at him like "no a-hole turn around" So he finishes and leaves the post office whewwwww and i get my letter all sent out. As i leave im thinking okay lets see if this mother is outside waiting for me. Just as i thought, i go out the glass doors and he is standing there looking in the glass waiting for me "i am the smartest man alive!!!" -billy maddison....thats what i thought when i saw him haha! and right as i make eye contact with him he pretends to be looking thru papers. Then waits for me to walk in a direction and he just hapens to go that way too....he says something to me and i pretend not to hear cuz we were kinda in a corner so i quickly walk towards the street and he runs up and cuts me off. (i have my pepper spray fully gripped in my coat pocket) and so i change direction and start walking at like an angle...sorry its hard to explain but anyway he cut me off again but i managed to get across to a street corner so we were more in the open and i just looked at him with my b-word face and say "what?!" like rude and fed up. Then he starts asking me where im from. I just stared at him like c'mon terrorist you think im gunna tell you? (i guess you could say im racist? middle eastern people just freak me out.) Then he asks where i live...same thing i just looked at him with my pissed off look and say "i dont understand you(even tho i did) and i dont want to talk to you, now leave me alone." and i try to go around him to keep walking but he sidesteps and tells me camla calma ferme which is like calm down hold still or something like that. so i looked at him like dont freaking tell me what to do and he starts asking me where im going so now im really like upset. not even so much scared just more thinking like bro please come at me cuz i would loveeeeeee to try this pepper spray out. For like the third time i say i dont know what youre saying and you're disgusting get out of my way. He says calma again and i yell NOOO i dont understand you, you dont understand me youre wasting my time leave me alone and push past him and keep walking fast. He runs across the street, gets in his car and just stares at me the whole time so i stared back haha is that wrong to do? idk but when you stare at a dog if they look away first that means you have control over them so when people stare at me i like to make them coward down first and let them know im not scared. So i stared back at him with like a "what!?" face and took the long way home since he drove behind me since it was the only street -_- So i crossed through a park and lost him. Im glad luciano gave me it an i will not go anywhere without it now because it felt so good holdin it in my hand knowing in case i need to use it i'll be okay but geez some men are just so stupid. Then after i lost him there was another guy on a different street that looked at me flirting and then said something to me and put his hand out as i walked past and i dont know what to say so i just look at them with "the face" haha. I've always been told i have a b-word looking face.  People always said i was intimidating and scary lookin, and that if they didnt know me they would never talk to me cuz i just look mean. I've been told i have the look that says i demand respect from everyone haha, Thanks?  And whenever my sports teams would be together for a while we'd all say first impressions like what we thought of eachother when we first met them and everyoneeee always says they were scared of me or thought i was gunna be such a b-word. So i like to use that to my advantage :) So yup that was  my day today!

My lovely pepper spray.....i dont look that mean right? :) oh a plus note i got this scarf for only like 6 euros and im obsessed with it! and momma those are my real nails look how long they are!!! :D